Auriol Hays

Awareness through music

Archive for April, 2012

Imperial Blaze

Now that I am no longer married I don’t take love or lust too seriously. I really am not interested in having anyone’s babies or playing girlfriend. For the first time I am able to see things as they are and simply Observe. Did I lose my faith in people or some higher power? No, I lost faith in only one person. My divorce and all the mess leading up to it taught me a valuable lesson: how to keep my pain in perspective.

Very often I hear  “You are so strong Auriol.” They have no idea….No one has any idea how close I came to losing my mind, how often I would scream myself awake from troubling dreams, not move from my bed or would collapse in tears after a show. Very often what you want and what you need are two different things. Did I want to be lied and betrayed at every corner? No. But it was what I needed to move on…

If I had to be truthful I would say that I knew, at that very second two years ago when I hurled my wedding ring across the room, that I would never put it on again. That somewhere, something had broken and no amount of promises or kind words could fix. I knew. We always know…but who wants to deal with that painful realization?

So I don’t take love or lust seriously and urge everyone else to do the same. “But he’s leaving in a few months time. I don’t want to get attached.” I hate it when woman say that! Sometimes I just want to smack them and say, “Every man you meet will not be your Baby-Daddy or the Love of Your Life dammit-all!”! This is, sadly something no one single woman wants to hear. We are either too invested in the fairy tale, the happily ever after, or the Rules and Regulations. I am sure that happily ever after exists somewhere out there. However, I am more invested in the Here and Now.

Keeping my pain in perspective was a damn hard thing. I had to remind myself every morning that I have so much to be grateful for. That this failed relationship was merely one small thing. One small thing…even writing that is hard.

I have no idea what will become of me… and for the first time I am okay with that. All I want to do is hang out with my pesky daughter, dance to Sean Paul with my sister, get on stage and sing, eat good food with friends, listen to good music and hang out at the beach. Anything or anyone else is just going to have to fit in with that…

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A Review by Zakes Mda

Since running into Zakes at the SABC and handing him my cd, I never thought that I would get to know him and his wife. He has since sent me his books and I in turn sent him music as I wrote them.  Last week I sent him the new album song by song over email and this is what he thought.

 

This is a kickass album that lovers of quality music will want to have in their collection. Auriol Hays is a versatile artist whose rendition ranges from love ballads that invoke a world when words still mattered, when lyrics were at a premium, before “baby, baby” was all we could say to express our stunted emotions, to exuberant rhythm-and-blues, right up to some smokey jazzy-blues. When she does the latter she’s really really blue and she takes you to that state of mind. It is the same voice that we have come to love: velvelty and palpable. But this is a different Auriol from that of the first album. It is the same sensual voice, but now with greater maturity. A much more defiant Auriol; yet at the same time gentle. A tinge of anger somewhere. However, this is not a mournful Auriol but a soulful one. In some numbers she is danceful too. For instance, “All Tied Up” will make even the most tired or aged of bones raise a storm on the dance floor. Or on the elliptical, exactly what “Turn Up the Music” from her previous album did for me. My most favorite, though, is the wistful “O Meu Amor”, which never fails to transport me whirling into a goose-bumpy universe. Indeed, there is something for everyone in this album

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Call It Love

This is a sneak peak of the album art. I don’t want to post too many pictures. This was taken by Christoph Heierli in Cape Town

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