I am going to just say it: I use to watch Days of our Lives and dammit-all, I loved John Black. I have to provide some sort of context and that means back tracking to my teen years. Back then my parents were crazy tyrants and I had nothing but time on my hands. I was a bored, terribly shy girl and Days just seemed to give me that something. It wasn’t the over the top dramatics or convoluted murderous plots that hooked me but… that man with the jet black hair…the silent, intense, crazy, poetic, brooding, dark mad ass military man who lost his memory and his Marlena to that evil Stefano DiMera from time to time. I loved seeing him all sweaty and half naked messing with his guns while trying to save his woman! Dammit-all he was my man. You could say that John Black was the original cause of all my man troubles. Sure, I loved my father. Daddy was smart, charming and educated – but a putz. John Black on the other hand…now that guy had some wickedly dangerous moves. Seriously, how could any man I ever meet live up to all that?

My love for John Black got me to thinking about men in general. In this day and age it is rather fashionable for men to be “in touch with their feminine aspects”. Now that might sound wonderful, but I want a man to be a man. In between all this esoteric new age teaching some men are ball sack- less. My friend Haroun seems to have the balance right. He is very tuned in but still has the balls and crazy man stuff that drive women around the bend. When I am having a conversation with a man I don’t want to hear airy-fairy mumbo jumbo talk. I want it to be given to me straight and hard if you get my drift. The concept of the metrosexual man is one that fascinates me also. I love that men are taking care of themselves and all that jazz but hell, it would be such a shame if men lost all their inherent John-Black-ness amidst all gelling and styling.

Now that I am a grown ass woman who no longer watches Days, I have found a way to keep my love affair with John Black alive and kicking, but before I reveal my secret a bit of honesty is needed here…John has been replaced over time. Sawyer from LOST…Dean from Supernatural…As you can see John Black never really left me and If you listen carefully enough to my songs you might just find him there…half naked and kicking ass