“Auriol, I love you… but this album is depressing! I just want to slit my wrists.” Before you ask, I was not offended. Music is personal and subjective after all. My second album Call It Love was a big departure from the pop infused-all-over-the-place, debut album Behind Closed Doors. “It’s the perfect album to listen to after Valentine’s Day” I joked. Above all, I hoped that the music would give people the kind of solace that Ben Harper’s music gave me when I needed it most.
I often wonder, in my darker moments, if I could have released a different kind of album; if it was necessary to lay myself as bare as I did. Why not release a mind-numbing album to get heads bobbing? Isn’t that what people want? A release? Jeez, my life would have been so much easier if I did. I wouldn’t have to explain, interview after interview, what sparked the album and skirt the truth to protect others.
“We must seize and celebrate the power of the Arts to shape our individual and national character,” said Ben Cameron. “And especially the youth who are subjected to a bombardment of sensations than digested experience” That is what I attempted to do with Call It Love… digested experience indeed.
Having a magical gig at the Alma Cafe with my friend and mentor Lionel Bastos, I am certain of a few things. The third album will feel different. I am not dealing with my own vulnerabilities anymore. Words such as strength, power, integrity and gun-slinging revolution come to mind. The songs are not personal. The themes are bigger, the tempos are faster and dashed with all manner of eclectic influences.
In short, I could only write the third album after getting out of my own head and heart. Have the last few years changed me? No. I am still the same tv-series addict who spends her nights listening to talk radio while reading a book. The same lady who agonizes while shopping, much to my daughter’s annoyance, even though I have a list… But circumstances have refined who I chose to be and how I express that individuality.
And I chose to be stronger, act with integrity, admit my faults when I make them, love passionately and without expectations… and in doing so will change the landscape of my life. I just hope that those listening will like what I have to share…