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Stir it Up

I said some nasty things to someone a few days ago. It’s hard to be nice to someone who is drinking themselves to death.

I constantly ask myself – why can’t they see where all this bullshit will get them? Just as I am on the verge of hurling all the swear words I know – I remember that it’s not my life – but theirs. So I detach myself and step back…

We all struggle to keep our boundaries intact – even on the good days. I once knew someone who could successfully talk about themselves for hours on end. I thought this was admirable and fun – for a little while but I cut them off and out.  My husband says I am mercenary at times…

Being a good friend, wife, mother and even musician requires that you listen intently to what people say – more so when they can’t find the words. I don’t have self involved friends but there are those who require more of my time and I give it. Hell, they were there for me when I wanted to throw myself off the nearest cliff! It’s the least I can do. But there are certain things I cannot have in my life…

The alcoholic in the making is one of them. I am not rude to them anymore. I don’t love or care any less… but there are times when things have to be said and the law laid down. Understanding and even empathy can only get you so far. And when strange people come into my life I ask myself what I can learn from them first before giving the kill order and sending my men out to do my dirty work…

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